The three books I lost

Anyone who is a reader can meet the joy of buying books, amending books or giving books … There are many stories in the book, and many stories outside the book. Today, talk about those things that lost books.

I have lost three books, and all of them are the books I love the most.

The first time I lost it was “Selected Novels”

“Selected Novels by Novels” (Part 1) is a selection of short stories published by China Youth Publishing House in January 1965 and popular with readers, especially young readers. The book contains works by young writer Zhang Tianmin’s “Road Test”, Lin Yu’s “Fifty Pass”, Ren Binwu’s “The Role of Opening a Sailboat” and other works that were very popular at the time. This collection of novels also included my short story “Wang Linlin” published in the Shanxi Literature Monthly “Spark” in December 1963. At that time, when I was in my early twenties, my work could be included in the best-selling “Newcomers’ Novels” together with the works of these writers. This is undoubtedly a great inspiration and spur to my literary creation. When I received the sample book of this novel collection, the joy and excitement was really indescribable-I turned it over and over, looked at it, and never wanted to leave. I’m afraid of losing it. When reading, it’s all in the evening. Lying on the bed, watching and smelling the fragrance of the ink of the new book, the whole body felt beautiful and comfortable. Therefore, always hang this book on the tip of your heart, and always put it in the most reliable place carefully selected to avoid loss. Unexpectedly, I eventually lost it.

More than a year after the “Selected Novels” was published, the “Cultural Revolution” began. At that time, there were three main points in the large-character newspaper that criticized me: one was the black cadre who wrote the “middle man”; the second was the black minions of Zhao Shuli; the third was the black seedling of revisionism. Of these three points, the main one is the first, because the novel “Wang Linlin” is about a young man who has just come to the mine from the countryside to train and grow into a qualified worker. This is just an ordinary person, not a hero. The slogan proposed at the time was “three highlights”, mainly to highlight heroes. Therefore, “Wang Linlin” will naturally be criticized. The second and third points, except for the high family composition, have no specific content, just slogans. So what I am most worried about and afraid of is the first one. I am afraid that “Selected Novels” will be taken as a target. At that time, the country was at the climax of great criticism. One day, the Central People ’s Broadcasting Station broadcast a speech by a cultural celebrity. He said that now it seems that all the things I wrote should be burned. After I heard this, I was shocked. But the word burning is very enlightening to me. So there was the idea of ​​reading all the criticized books that I had read and burning them away, so as not to provoke wrongdoing. Does “Selected Novels” burn? Burned, reluctant; not burned, and afraid of being criticized.

That night, I was hiding in the dormitory alone, quietly putting Ba Jin’s “Home”, “Spring”, “Autumn”, “Fog”, “Rain”, “Electricity” and other novels that were very attractive to me and writers like Cao Yu and Guo Moruo Some works burned with tears. In the end, I held “Newcomer Novel Selection” in my hand and turned it over and over, but I didn’t have the courage to throw it into the brazier. I don’t know how long it took. I seemed to wake up from my dream, and found that the book was attached to my chest and was pressed tightly by my hands. My heart was beating suddenly, there seemed to be tears in my eyes, I couldn’t see anything, my hands were shaking a little, I picked up the book again, and the cover was a little warm. I stood up and found that the flames in the pot had already gone out. I want to touch the match, but my hands and feet do not listen. Suddenly, he kicked the brazier fiercely. Then, holding the book, turning around on the house …… Turning around, suddenly my heart lighted up, came up with a way-stacking the newspapers such as “Selected Novels” and “Red Flag” magazines, and put them in A large envelope printed with the words of the Mining Party Committee was sealed and placed in a bookcase with “Selected Works of Mao Zedong” and the works of Ma and Lie. I looked at it, thought about it, and thought it would be safer and safer to put it this way.

A few months later, the object of the big criticism was transferred from the cultural aspect to corporate managers and related leaders, and my nervousness gradually eased. Unexpectedly, one day, a leader in the mine approached me and said that the Bureau of Mines (our leading agency) called twice and wanted to lend you to write a script. You have to report immediately. I said: “I won’t write anything now. I won’t go.” The mine leader said: “We can’t stand it anymore. You still go there and say it yourself.” Helpless, I went to the bureau to find the relevant leader . It turned out that it was to use the “mass pit” as a background and an old worker who crawled out of the “mass pit” as a clue to write an opera script that recalled the contrast. In the game, two people were drawn, and one was the old Mu of the Second Coal Mine. He often went to the stage to act and had experience. The leader said, you must write it within three months-the propaganda team is still waiting for the show. I found a lot of reasons, saying that I can’t write, I can’t write, but it’s useless. In the end, he still obeyed the leadership.

Writing an opera script is easy! ——After more than half a year of tossing, I didn’t write a book that can pass the level. It was during these six months that my “Newcomer Novel Selection” was lost.

When I got married, I didn’t have a house, so my friends sorted out my single dormitory and used it as a new house. It takes two or three years. When I arrived at the bureau to write a script, I found a room for my family in order to make room for a single person who was nowhere to live. When I moved, my wife wanted to call me. Everyone said, you’re a little bit of money, you still need to call him back? So, everyone started and moved the house in just half a day. After more than half a month, I took leave to go back to look at it, and suddenly found that “Selected Novels” was gone. I turned over the box and searched from left to right, but the big envelope with the words “Mining Party Committee” printed in “Selected Novels” was never found. Ask anyone, and everyone said no. I went back to the original dormitory and found it. And this book is very important and important in my mind! I was extremely irritable, and my heart was turbulent: angry with myself, blaming Mrs …. but all this was useless. If you lose it, you ca n’t find it anymore. For a long time afterwards, no matter whether it was mentioned or some articles wrote about the “Selected Novels” and “Wang Linlin”, I would feel speechless regret, annoying distress and uneasy guilt … … But regretful and helpless. To be honest, I definitely don’t want to get any aura from this book. In fact, such a very ordinary book has no great value. I just think that without this book, I feel like I am missing something. It is not very practical. When someone writes or mentions it, I even feel empty and trance …

In a person’s life, there will be a lot of joy, and there may be a lot of distress. Generally speaking, people lose a book, maybe it is really nothing, there is no need to make a fuss. But I lost that “Selected Novels”, but it was really painful. It seems that joy and pain are connected with specific people and specific things, each with its own situation.

Everything is developing and changing. I never imagined that after a few years, my repentance and long-term troubles and regrets turned into an unexpected and unstoppable excitement and joy-soon after smashing the “gang of four”, I Going to Beijing for a business trip, I habitually transferred to the old book market in Dongan Market. I saw the old books that had just been recovered everywhere, and some were piled up on the open ground. In order to find their own needs, men, women and children in various costumes come and go, wipe their shoulders and touch their arms, and continue to raise their heads and bend down, picking left and right … It is here and here, I was surprised to find The book “Selected Novels” that made me think at night. In the middle of a not-so-high bookshelf, I saw at a glance the “Selected Novels by Newcomers” with fairly clear handwriting. The white text on the spine of the book is still so solemn and amiable, and the words “China Youth Press” printed below are still so free and soft. I was stunned, and I squeezed my eyes vigorously, thinking that I was absolutely right. He stretched out his slightly trembling hands, took the accurate book off, and held it in his hand. First, he read the words and illustrations on the cover twice, and then opened them page by page. On the title page of the book, there were actually five seals of the library and loan number of the Tianjin Education Bureau. It seems that this book has been borrowed many times, and it seems a bit vicissitudes and aging, but there is no trace of doodles and tears. This two-hundred-and-eight-hundred-and-eight-hundred-page novel, after many years of bumpy journey, is still intact. I really thank the Tianjin Education Bureau Library and those educated readers who have saved this book that has always been of concern to me and did not damage it.

The short story “Wang Linlin” and the “Newcomer Novel Selection” included in this novel are my first step on the road of literary creation. Although I have experienced many hardships in this step, the footprints it left are clear and profound unforgettable. It is important for my literary creation and even life. Now, I have this old book in my hand, but the content is still there. My heart is not only relaxed, but also full, not only excited but also powerful. It is safe to say that this “Selected Novels” that has experienced too many hardships is not only a field of salvation of memory, but also a source of gurgling power. It will often encourage me, spur me, and remind me constantly. Let ’s broaden our horizons and look forward. In current and future literary creations, keep moving forward. As long as your body is able to do so, you ca n’t leave the computer that often serves for typing texts. New works of the era, strive for new works to be included in the selection of new literary works.

The second time I lost “Replaying Flowers”

“Replaying Flowers” is a collection of short stories published by Shanghai Literature and Art Publishing in May 1979. This book brings together some of the works in the 1950s where writers discussed how to reflect the contradictions among the people and the diversity of creative themes and creative styles. When these works were published, they were generally welcomed by readers. But soon, they were criticized in one way or another, and were labeled as “poisonous grass”, and were imprisoned for a long time.

After smashing the “gang of four”, I bought this “Replaying Flowers” at Beijing Xidan Bookstore. When I turn it over, I see Wang Meng’s “New Youth in the Organization Department”, Li Guowen’s “Re-election” and Lu Wenfu’s “In the Alley”. I remember that both Wang Meng and Li Guowen’s works were published in “People’s Literature” in 1956 (which issue is not clear), “Deep Alley” was published in “Sprout”. At that time, I read these novels and felt very enjoyable, very happy, and left a deep impression. But after a short time, they were criticized again as “poisonous grass”. The three authors were also criticized-at that time, they had just begun to study writing, and faced this situation, they were very scared. Unexpectedly, after more than 20 years, I suddenly saw “Replaying Flowers”. At that time, it was really shocking, joyful, and exciting.

The protagonist of the New Youth in the Organization Department, Lin Zhen, was transferred from the district central primary school to the organization department of the district committee. At school, people praised this young teacher who had just graduated from a normal school. All day long, “worry-free, careless, except work, work …” After arriving at the organization department, he was more energetic and serious and responsible , I ca n’t bear the stubbornness and stubbornness of some official attitudes and stubborn work styles in the organization, but the opinions I put forward are often not accepted … In fact, people like Lin Zhen, in our work and It is not uncommon in life. Several of the main characters in “New Youth in the Organization Department” can also be encountered in life, but why can’t they write it themselves? When reading this work, it seems to have a little insight. It can be considered some improvement. But half a year later, this work became “poisonous grass”. Then there was news: the young writer Wang Meng, who was very important in our hearts, went to Xinjiang with his family. Wang Meng is four years older than me. In his historic changes over the past few years, I was probably in his early seventeens to twenties. At that time, it was just a child who was just called to work, but in my mind, I followed the ups and downs of this novel and its author, and I was very worried. I was anxious, but I was frightened, and careful-this is Inspire? Is it education? Still frightened and irritated? I can’t tell.

A few decades later, it was the turn of the century. I never expected that I would have the opportunity to accompany Wang Meng from Yingxian Wooden Pagoda to Datong Xuankong Temple. At that time, he had stepped down as Minister of Culture and chatted all the way. No one mentioned the novel and the experience of the “New Youth in the Organization Department”. The night before he left Datong, I went to the hotel to see him and chatted casually again. He asked about the situation in Pingshuo after the foreigner withdrew his shares, and also talked about the literary creation of the coal mine and the work of Liu Qingbang … Later, at the suggestion of his wife Cui Ruifang, he presented me a banner with the word “Youth” . At that time, I was almost “early” and I saw the word “youth” and somehow thought of the novel “Newcomers to the Organization Department” and those left for me by this novel The unforgettable impression, the more I think, the more the meaning of the word “Youth” means endlessly–maybe, these two words will become the shining starting point of my old life, let me calm in those flowers that replay And calmly continue to move forward.

Li Guowen ’s short story “Re-election”, which wrote an old trade union cadre Hao Kuishan who was dedicated to working for the masses of the workers, was excluded from the union chairman who was able to speak eloquently and continuously, and removed Hao ’s name from the candidates during the re-election. As a result, at the election conference, Lao Hao was elected with high votes in warm applause. But in the applause of the election, Lao Hao’s regiment quietly died in the last corner of the venue. This article was published in a headline of “People’s Literature”. However, after a while, “Re-election” became “poisonous grass”, and the author Li Guowen was also criticized.

Twenty years later, Li Guowen came back and wrote many good works. He has won many awards such as the Mao Dun Literature Award and the Lu Xun Literature Award. “Re-election” writes about the life of workers. The characters in the works can be seen in life, and their artwork can be put on the headlines by the literary “National Journal” and “People’s Literature”, which can also be imagined. After reading such works, as an amateur author who has been the chairman of the grass-roots trade union, of course benefited a lot. However, what I value more is the author’s own literary feelings. He wrote the short novel “Re-election” with eight thousand words. The author Li Guowen has decentralized to remote areas for more than 20 years, about eight thousand days, one word a day-what a high price to pay. However, after smashing the “gang of four”, he quickly published the novels “No. 5 Garden Street” and “Spring in Winter” in 1980 and 1981. Next, a large number of short stories and essays and other works were published. This allows us to clearly see the spiritual realm of a writer without complaint, unwavering literary ambition and broad and open cultural feelings … undoubtedly, these make his readers feel extremely admired and praised again and again. I am both a reader and an amateur writer, and I have been encouraged and strengthened my confidence … This profound education is my longing memory and unforgettable past-this is ambition, this is hope, It is also confidence and strength. Therefore, my respect for the novel “Re-election” and the author Mr. Li Guowen is engraved in my heart, and it has become a flower in my life forever, a permanent memory in my life journey.

The story of “Deep Alley” is simple: in a small alley in the ancient city of Suzhou surrounded by the canal, there is a beautiful girl Xu Wenxia. After liberation, he became a worker after education, reform and assistance. She is young and clever, studious, and well behaved, and few people know the stain that makes her feel humiliated. Zhang Jun, a technician who graduated from college, quietly fell in love with her. The two get along well and their feelings continue to deepen. At this time, a person named Zhu Guohun suddenly broke into their lives. It was the speculators of this old society that brutally insulted the sixteen-year-old girl for the first time. So, these three people-one who is afraid of being ugly, one who is afraid of being ugly; one who is sincere in courtship, who is innocent and innocent; an old tyrannical, who threatens blackmail … This way, an uncomplicated but suspenseful love story is interpreted.

The writer Lu Wenfu is famous for writing mortal trivia in Luxiang Alley. “Deep Alley” not only contains the historical connotation of the times, but also has a positive theme and touching art. What makes me even more admirable is that his writing is sweet and vivid, clear and elegant, and touching. The poplars in the autumn wind, whirling tree shadows, water lilies in the river bed, and the footsteps of young men and women walking side by side on the stone floor of the alley in the drizzle … all fresh and elegant, fun and leisurely, the rich style of Gusu city scenery alley The depiction is realistic and vivid, which makes the reader intoxicated. The first time I saw this novel, I was just 18 years old, and I was fanatically delving into the pastoral field of literary creation. At this critical moment, “In the Deep of the Alley” let me see the beautiful flowers in the spring breeze, which made my feelings and excitement permeate all over my body, blending the hope and strength in the journey, helping me Stubbornly and painstakingly adhered to the mood and ambition of literary creation. Regardless of the season, the gorgeous flower in the alleys of Suzhou will always appear in the bottom of my heart, and sometimes I will smell the faint fragrance.

In more than 20 years, how many people gather and disperse, how many things alternate … However, cultural flowers like “New Youth in the Organization Department”, “Re-election” and “In the Alley of the Alley” still make people Smell the sweet and attractive fragrance. This is really commendable. So this “Replaying Flowers” has become more and more important in my mind. In order to arrange a suitable place for her in the study, I actually turned around in the study several times before putting it on the shelf near the corner, which was not easy to be seen and taken away, but also convenient for me to read at any time. After putting it away, I thought to myself: This book cannot be lost. Looking back, he said to himself: It seems impossible to lose.

After about three years, I think of it again to look at “New Young People in Organization Department”, but “Replaying Flowers” is gone. I mobilized the whole family to help, but eventually I couldn’t find it. Go to a bookstore to buy it, go to the used book market to find it, search it online and find it … nothing. That’s it-the book I loved and the “flowers” that gave the reader a lot of enlightenment quietly left. Regardless of whether you can be lucky enough to meet in the ring of the annual ring, but the sweetness, the bitterness, the surprise, the joy in the aftertaste … there is always a warmth in the heart, a splendor and strength …

The third time I lost it was “Beauty is Naive”

Every time I go to Beijing, I have to go to Xidan Bookstore. In 1999, I bought a new book titled “Beauty in the Innocence” published by China Social Press. This book was written by Bing Xin, Ye Shengtao, Ai Qing, Xiao Qian, Wu Zuguang, and edited by Wu Xinyan. After Xinfengxia’s death on April 12, 1998, newspapers and magazines at home and abroad published many sincere and touching mourning articles for people and people from all walks of life. More than one hundred works collected in this book were selected from them. In October of this year, the “New Fengxia Wu Zuguang Research Society” was jointly established by Hua Junwu, Yan Wenjing, Hu Bangqing, Fang Cheng, Huang Zongjiang, Ding Cong, Zhang Ruifang, Qin Yi and others. The editor of this book, Wu Xinyan, is short for this research society.

Upstairs and downstairs at Xidan Bookstore, there are so many new books like sea, why am I fancy this book?

In the passing years, time flies, some things, some people, will gradually forget. However, under certain circumstances and under certain conditions, some of the past that has gone away will become colorful poetry, deep-hearted ballads, and sing touching tunes repeatedly. Every chapter of the book I bought was written in the eternal life of the glory of life in the long waves of waves. In my opinion, this is a song of life, a song of affection, a song of touching, a song of eternity.

My ancestral home is in the North China Plain, only a hundred miles away from Beijing. In the rural area just after liberation, there is still little cultural life. In addition to going to school and studying, it is to listen to and watch the drama-the type of drama, mainly to criticize the drama. Village amateur critics sometimes encounter literary things, such as reading scripts, copying drama words … often calling me to help, so I became a fan and critic queen Xinfeng together with the troupe Xia’s loyal admirer.

Xin Fengxia, three years old, was trafficked from Suzhou to the north by human traffickers. After several twists and turns, he settled in the Yang family in a large compound in Tianjin. Forced by life, she started to learn Peking opera at the age of six, and changed to criticism at the age of thirteen. In order to earn money to support her family, she worked hard and studied hard, and at the age of fourteen she took the lead. On the eve of liberation, he led his mother and three younger sisters to Beijing to work and sing in the overpass.

In the fifteen or six years after the founding of New China, his “Liu Qiaoer” was popular all over the country. I remember that in our hometown, there was a saying “sell windows and doors, you have to look at Liu Qiaoer”. “Flowers as a medium”, “Xianglin’s wife”, “Volunteer’s fiancee”, “Sister Yang’s complaint”, “Jinsha River” and her self-edited “Art Sea Deep Enmity”, etc. It has won enthusiastic praise from audiences at home and abroad. It is at this time that drama criticism, a drama that has not been around for a long time, reached its peak. As a result, “new school” singing came into being. The reputation of “Queen of Drama” is widely circulated among many fans. In the field of traditional opera art in the 1950s, Xin Fengxia was undoubtedly an outstanding national artist, and the quality and influence of the new school art undoubtedly ranked first in the industry.

The second reason for buying this book is the author of the articles in the book. Many of them are well-known writers and celebrities in the cultural world. I mentioned these people and Xin Fengxia and his husband. The story of playwright Wu Zuguang. As a literary lover and admirer of Xinfengxia, how can he not buy this book?

I bought it, read it, became addicted, satisfied, and put the book up.

In a blink of an eye, in 2018, on April 23 of that year, CCTV Integrated Channel broadcast a 2017 China Good Book Awards Gala jointly hosted by CCTV and the China Book Review Society. The show was hosted by famous host Bai Yansong and reading image ambassador Li Pan. What shocked me was that among the 30 good books selected in 2017, there was actually the book “Beauty is Naive”. I was surprised, happy, and puzzled, and my mind was a little messy-is this too weird? That book was published in 1999! How is this possible? What the host said later, didn’t hear clearly …

The next day, I went into the study room to find the book “Beauty in the Innocence” I bought before-it was a strange thing. After more than two hours, the study room was turned over and I couldn’t find it. I was annoyed and regretted to myself and said to myself: “If you lose it, you must have lost it-how can you lose a good book?” But there are many unexpected things in the world. One day, I found a good book advertisement on the Internet, including “beauty is innocent”. The author of the book clearly wrote Xin Fengxia, and there is a subtitle: Xin Fengxia’s self-report. This book is published by Shandong Pictorial Publishing House. Now that everything is clear, this “beauty in the naive”, which was rated as a good book in 2017, has the same name as the “beauty in the naive” I bought before, but not the same book. So, I immediately bought this newly published good book “Beauty is Naive”.

The thirty-five articles collected in the good book “Beauty in Naiveness” are all documentary manuscripts of Xin Fengxia’s own life as a theme, but she didn’t have time to publish. She suddenly returned to heaven. In 2017, on the occasion of commemorating the 90th anniversary of the birth of Xinfengxia, Shandong Pictorial Publishing House dedicated a good book “Beauty in Naive” to the readers and admirers of Xinfengxia at home and abroad The same title shared by Naive is the evaluation of Xin Fengxia by the predecessor famous poet Ai Qing. He has a commemorative article titled “Beauty is Naive”.

After reading these two books, I slowly realized that the core of “beauty is innocence” is the beautiful word, and it is true beauty, not false or true, but real beauty. Many people have said that many articles have written: The holiness, the spirit, the splendor, the brightness, the simplicity, the strongness in the world … all fall in love with her. Whether it is to see her or to see her play, or to read her book or admire her paintings, it is like seeing the water hibiscus and admiring the empty valley. Her crisp, clear, soft, gentle tone and singing. What is presented is the sweetness and enjoyment of soothing, relaxing and tenderness. Everyone’s common understanding: she is the incarnation of beauty, from the outside to the inside, collecting all the elements of beauty. Why are there so many sincere praises from the heart? I think everyone ’s answer may not be exactly the same, but one thing is the same, that is, this new experience of rugged and bumpy new actor, writer, and painter who told us the word “beauty” Connotation. Of course, due to differences in people’s identities, ages, hobbies, and even gender, the understanding of connotation will have different focuses or differences. For me, a fan of the new school of drama criticism, a loyal reader of Xinfengxia’s work, and an amateur author for many years, the focus of her understanding of this beautiful character is in the following aspects:

When Xinfengxia was young, her life was unclear and she didn’t even know her birthday. When filling in the marriage certificate, it was Mr. Lao She who gave the 23rd day of the lunar month and the 11th day of the solar calendar. She has not been to school for a day. At the age of six, she studied drama and relied on memory to recite lines. The hardships and hardships she experienced were unimaginable and unclear. This became an important part of her later writing.

After liberation, at the first cultural congress, she met two professors from Tsinghua University. Soon after, Mr. Lao She was accompanied by Zhao Shuli to watch “Little Two Black Marriage” starring her. Year-round. Learning culture, literacy, and art from these teachers … Graduating from literacy classes in 1957, her two essays “New Year” and “Aunt” were published in the “People’s Daily” and won the predecessors Ye Shengtao, Bing Xin, Xia Yan , Ai Qing and other famous experts unanimously praised. At the same time, the drama “Liu Qiaoer” starring in her has also been made into a movie and released nationwide. Coupled with the consolation of the Volunteer Army in the DPRK, the performances of “The Fiancee of the Volunteer Army” and the “Sister Yang’s Complaint” after she visited Yang Sane in Luan County, Hebei Province three times, pushed the art of criticism to an unprecedented peak The “new school” singing sings the mountains and rivers, and is well-known at home and abroad.

At this moment, her life has undergone a major turning point. In 1957, her husband, Wu Zuguang, was criticized, and in 1958, she was transferred to labor at the Beidahuang State Farm. A leader of the Ministry of Culture talked to Xin Fengxia and asked her to draw a line and divorce her husband. She said, “I will not leave.” The leader asked again: “How long do you wait for him?” She replied: “Wang Baochuan waited for Xue Pinggui for 18 years, and I waited for him for 28 years.” After that, she was criticized in the theater. Supervise the transformation. Before going on the stage, she needs to lift the scene and move the props; after the show is over, she has to sweep the floor, clean the glass, wash the toilet … But she can’t help acting, because she doesn’t act and sells tickets, which will affect the theater’s income. In this way, she insisted firmly, day after day, year after year. On August 25, 1966, her left leg meniscus was injured and fell disabled. After 1968, he was forced to participate in the manual labor of digging an air-raid shelter 20 meters underground for seven years. In 1975, she was asked to go to Pinggu County to work, and she fainted before leaving. The hospital was misdiagnosed as cerebral hemorrhage, and cerebral thrombosis was diagnosed only two years later, resulting in hemiplegia and lifelong disability. At this time, she was only forty-seven years old.

In 1978, the problems of Wu Zuguang and Xin Fengxia were completely rectified. After that, she exercised actively, optimistically and tenaciously. With the help of her husband Wu Zuguang, she wrote and painted with amazing perseverance and tenacious character who never succumbed to any suffering. From 1975 until her death, Xin Fengxia, who had not entered the school for one day, overcame the physical and cultural difficulties of the body, and also made it difficult to surprisingly complete her from actor to writer, painter and Mentor’s historic transformation. In her room, by the window is a small desk with a Xinhua dictionary on the table. On weekdays, she always sits at a small table and writes her unique style. Behind, there is a large painting case, turning around, you can draw her colorful freehand drawing. After getting up early every morning, after washing, she sat at the small table and wrote … Was tired, she turned around and changed her posture. Thirteen years ago, she wrote four million-word essays. I found a list of books published during her lifetime. I counted a total of twenty books, plus the 2017 good book “Beauty is Naive” It should be twenty-one.

Xin Fengxia’s writing is not only large in quantity, but also high in quality. Whether it’s writing childhood memoirs, old pictures of Liyuan, or writing about Nanshi in Tianjin, and overpasses in Beijing … are all her personal experiences and inner words. The text is unpretentious and the feelings are sincere and touching. No wonder Ye Shengtao, Bing Xin, Yan Wenjing and other cultural masters are willing to preface her; Ding Cong, Fang Cheng and other painters are also willing to paint illustrations for her. Ye Shengtao said she was “handwriting my mouth with me”. Xiao Qian said that she is “the number one model of self-study in this century.”

In the early days of liberation, Xin Fengxia had studied painting from Qi Baishi, but at that time she was busy performing and did not often have time to paint. In the 1980s, she took up her brush again and enjoyed a good harvest with her literary works. Her paintings are also self-contained. She paints by herself, and Wu Zuguang’s inscriptions have more than 1,000 paintings. In 1995, “Wu Zuguang’s New Fengxia Poetry, Calligraphy and Painting Collection” was published. Their calligraphy and painting exhibition opened in Beijing in February 1994. Later, it was launched in Hong Kong, Taipei and other places. It was also exhibited in Singapore, France and the United States, and won a worldwide reputation. In 1977, the Lincoln Art Center of the American Art Society of New York awarded Wu Zuguang and Xin Fengxia the “Lifetime Achievement Award for the Most Outstanding Artist in Asia”.

Xin Fengxia was a member of the Sixth, Seventh, and Eighth National Committees of the Chinese People’s Political Consultative Conference, a director of the Chinese Dramatists Association, a member of the Chinese Writers Association, and a director of the China Judging Theatre Art Committee.

There are countless outstanding actresses, female writers, and female painters in the world. However, how many people, like Xin Fengxia, have made outstanding contributions in the three major fields of drama, writing, and painting? Therefore, many critics such as drama critic Chen Guofu have come to the conclusion that “the ancient West had a broken arm Venus, and contemporary China has a leg with a broken new Fengxia.” Such a metaphor is extremely relevant. Venus is a symbol of love and beauty, how to understand the beauty of Xinfengxia? Let’s open those two “Beauty in Naive”. Reading, reading, reading patiently, thinking carefully, and understanding carefully … will definitely feel the taste in that beautiful character. But be sure to keep the books carefully. If you lose the book, you will often lose your spirit-this is the lesson I have lost three books.

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