Tchaikovsky’s unspeakable

The trip to Russia is not a cultural pilgrimage to the Chinese. Many people came to the musician Tchaikovsky (1840-1893). The Chinese people affectionately call Tchaikovsky “Old Chai”, his fourth, fifth, sixth (sorrowful) symphony, the opera “Yegen Gonnie Onegin”, “The Queen of Spades”, the dance “Swan” Lake, Sleeping Beauty, Nutcracker, First Piano Concerto, Violin Concerto, Rocco Theme Variations, First String Quartet, Piano Trio, Commemorating the Great Artist, Symphonic Overture, 1812, Fantasy Overture “Romeo and Juliet”, the symphony fantasies “Richelny’s Francesca”, etc., have shaken our hearts…

The Tchaikovsky biography published in the Soviet era portrayed his childhood as a warm and beautiful pastoral painting. In fact, this is not the case at all. Tchaikovsky began practicing piano at the age of five, but he was forced by his parents. When he grew up, he recalled that when he touched the keys, his heart shook, and the sound of the popping sound shook. He often woke up from his dreams in the middle of the night, yelling and shouting, saying that music made him breathless. When the mother saw it, he no longer forced him to practice the piano. After a little bigger, Tchaikovsky was sent to St. Petersburg to study law.

Tchaikovsky was allergic to nervousness, and his family’s voice was a little louder. He would overreact, not to mention a break. He reacted more strongly when he was criticized by his parents. If he had a sudden fallacy, he would have to suffer from epilepsy, and his mouth foamed and turned his eyes, scaring his parents to dare not marry him.

Tchaikovsky was inferior to himself because of his sexual orientation. The law of the Russian Empire was harsh on homosexuality, so Tchaikovsky was afraid to expose the secret. After he entered puberty, his distress was even more. The young and handsome girl talked with him, he talked to them at most. His friends introduced him to him, but he always used various excuses to avoid dating. Tchaikovsky is afraid of contact with the opposite sex. He secretly vows not to expose the unspeakable, and find a girl to marry as soon as possible, saving the world from despising him.

In 1868, the famous Belgian singer Aalto was invited to the Moscow Conservatory New Year Party. Her song touched Tchaikovsky. He loved Aalto’s wonderful voice, and for the first time in his heart ignited the flame of love. Moreover, through a brief contact, Tchaikovsky found that Aalto’s character was very masculine, and her characteristics attracted him. Tchaikovsky even proposed to Aalto.

Alto was quite astonished, but she left Russia hurriedly on the tour. Tchaikovsky looked at her back, her heart was desperate and sad – he lost the only chance to become a real man, and only dedicated a “F minor romantic song” to the dream of Aalto.

In 1877, Tchaikovsky decided to find a woman to marry in order to let gossip and swearing. He took aim at Mirova, a student who was 8 years younger than him, and asked her to marry her in two weeks. Tchaikovsky said: “I don’t love you, I won’t love you in the future. I won’t be your husband, but I will marry you for objective reasons. Please marry me.” Miliukova on Chai Ke Fusky is in love, and although Tchaikovsky said so, she still expressed her willingness to marry him. In the summer, they held a wedding in the church. According to the rules, the groom should kiss the bride after wearing the corolla. However, when Tchaikovsky turned his face to the bride, a nausea suddenly came up, and he almost spit.

Tchaikovsky refused to live in the couple after marriage, and Miliukova felt desperate. Tchaikovsky refused to divorce, so they lived in separate rooms. Not long after, the gossip about Tchaikovsky’s sexual orientation was really raging in the city.